(Source: jamjars, via whathisdreamsmaycome)
Awkward..
Okay so I told you I liked you back Sophomore year. MY SOPHOMORE YEAR. I realize I told you like 3 years later, but I don’t want you to get the wrong idea. I still have feelings for this guy and if I’m stupid for still having feelings for him then so be it. No I do not think you have a chance especially after what you said to me. I understand you’re trying to help, but you took it too far.
(Source: pusheen)
April 18
I probably should stop writing my feelings out publicly, but oh well. When I hang out with other people, I forget about you and everything. Then when I’m at home, I just think about you and what not. I know that we probably won’t speak for a while, and thats fine. Its not like you care. I gotta stay strong. I have to hold my ground. I can’t forget about what you said and thats why I can’t be your friend right now. You got your keychain back and you just smiled. I don’t think thats a good sign..
Every Teardrop is a Waterfall.
You know, it is getting easier and I am starting to feel a little better. I know its ganna be a long road, but I know imma be fine. I know imma have days where Its ganna get hard for me to not talk to you and then there are ganna be days like today where I don’t care and it doesn’t bother me at all. I wonder if you’re thinking about me? I wonder if you’ve thought about me? At times, it doesn’t matter, but then sometimes it does. I miss you and then I don’t. Anyways, I’m just listening to Every Teardrop is a Waterfall by Coldplay.
April 16th
I’m just trying to keep busy. I can’t stop thinking about you and what not. I know I did what was best for me. I can’t stop liking you if I’m friends with you. it doesn’t work like that. We both know that. All i wanna know is why? Why is it that every time I’m ready to move on and start to have everything back in place, you come back into my life? It’s just not fair to me, I can’t sit here with these false hopes thinking that somethings ganna happen and then you’re off with like 2 other girls. It seems selfish, but I accepted the fact that you didn’t wanna be friends and then you come back in my life like that and just expect things to peaches. Umm no. It left me confused and conflicted and I don’t know what to do. You mean the world to me, but I come first in my eyes. It’s not easy, but I need a clean break from you. Just to move on with my life, and start to pick up with my life before I met you. And this time for sure pick up where i left things before I met you.
I gotta do what’s best for me.
Yes I know I hurt you, but I’m sorry. I know what I said was uncalled for but you know I didn’t mean it. Last week, you totally caught me off guard. You told me you didn’t even wanna be friends and then you come outta nowhere and left me confused and I didn’t know what to do. Yes I do care about you, but how can things be normal?? You told me to not look for you and not be friends with you, and then you come outta nowhere and I said i didn’t wanna be friends because that is what YOU wanted in the first place. Then you get hella fucking mad and slammed my car door, like shit thats what YOU wanted like a month ago. I tried being friends with you, but I’m not ready. I do want to be friends right this minute if i could, but I can’t. Plus, you’re ignoring me, but hey I said I would set aside everything for you, but you aint having it so I guess i gotta move on. I know thats whats best for me though.
Source: Chase Whiteside
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